Giving

Looking back at my life, I have always been a person who gives of themselves without wanting anything in return. I would say that it has always been in my nature to give to others without any expectations of the recipient. I get joy when I am able to brighten someone's day (sometimes even without them knowing it was me). There wasn't a point when I was expecting anything back or even getting recognition of what I did for that person or that organization.

On Christmas Eve, our Pastor spoke about the topic of giving vs. receiving; very appropriate for that time of year. We give and we receive presents. SOmetimes though, it's hard to receive those presents and even those compliments that other bestow on us. As I was reflecting on this I did realize that I am one of those who fit that category; I feel ackward when people thank me for doing something for them or even when someone compliments me on something. So I guess you would say that I am in the majority in this respect.

One reason why I think I am this way and many of us are as well is that it is easier for us to give that it is to receive. It's easy for us to give our time, our money, our resources. When we are the recipients, it's harder; it's harder because we don't want to feel like a charity case, we don't want to seem like we always need something. I know for me, I want to be able to know that I am responsible for me. I don't want to feel like I am a burden to others (though I know I'm not) and want to be self sufficient. SOmetimes though, reality does come down and hits me on the head.

It's ok to ask for help; it's a normal part of life. Having been through Bible training; I am well aware that Jesus asks for help in many occasions. If he didn't ask for help, the gospel would have never been spread and we would probably not have been given the opportunity to help spread the gospel to the ends of the earth. Looking at asking for help in this way does change my view about asking for help. So if Jesus can ask for help we are sure capable of asking for it for ourselves as well.

With all that being said, I know one of my words for 2015 will be gratitude, gratitude for friends and family who are always there for me no matter what. I hope that all will think about what makes it hard to receive rather than to give and also being able to practice something in the New Year that is positive in your life.