Jumping off a Ledge

Have any of you experienced jumping off a ledge or something that was higher than a step stool? How afraid were you? Did you take that jump or did you scurry away from the edge as fast as you could?

For me, I've experienced both sides. There have been many times in my life that I wasn't afraid at all in jumping off the ledge. I was attached to a harness and I knew I would be safe because there was something to catch me. It was a controlled "jump" a jump I knew I would reach the bottom or the end. A "known" result. At first I was scared but once I did it, I wanted to go over and over again. I knew what the outcome would be every single time.

The other side is "Don't jump", it's too scary, you don't know the end result, you don't have control. This has been in my life as well. These are the situations where I can't control the outcome and can't control what will happen at the end. These situations come more often for me now than those "controlled risk" situations. Ever since beginning my relationship with God, I've definitely experienced my share of these. One might think that these would come easier over time; for me I get the same feeling each and every time one of these decisions come along.

While driving in my car, I was thinking about this and why this happens; how I can make sense of this situation. I then came to a realization, it's because of the comfortableness of the situation. Once I "jump" I begin to feel comfortable again. I am in a place where I know what will go on. I'm at the point of my journey again when another "step off the ledge" is coming. I don't know when or where or how but I can sense its coming.

I always get nervous and non adequate and etc. Any excuse I come up with I get. It's funny for me to think about that because looking at my life, I have always "jumped" headfirst into something knowing that it's because of my faith in God that I do it. I do those things because I know God will always catch me. But the real question is "Why do I have this fear every single time?"

Maybe because it's NORMAL for people to have this. It's NORMAL that I get scared. I'm like every other person in regards to this. However, I also have someone in my life that helps me with this situation. God is always there, he'll never make me jump unless He knows the outcome. The only part I have to do is TRUST and jump.

Well that will come in another post about TRUST. Until then, I leave you with a challenge: to get to the edge of your own "ledge" and ask yourself "to jump or not to jump". THAT is the real question.